hai . it was really horrible to wake up without his text . damn , mmg pagi yg suram la mmg . kebiasaannya , dia bgi bgun sbelum kesekola . but now , teda tu smua . aku goyah hidup skrg . need somebody . a friend . to share all this pain . he told me -don't ever change- i won't . in fact , i'm scared that you will change . it's terrifying . it scares me . i couldn't sleep all night thinking all these . my life is a mess without you . i meant it . really meant it . i would do anything for us to have that life we mean . i need time to think . to relieve myself . guys , i'm sorry if my entry was like ' eww , apa hal minah ni ? ' but , think about it , it's my blog . so it's up to me . you're just a reader . act like one . don't ever make my middle finger want to salute you . i'm warning you