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Suicide. // Saturday, January 12, 2013
5:32 AM
So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right? Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They'll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you're fooling around. Then they'll start shaking you. Why aren't you breathing ? They'll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this ? More tears. Pain. Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day. Guilt. More guilt. What about your bestfriends?  They're not going to care right ? No.  What's the first that will go through their mind when the principal comes in and tells the class that you're not alive? While your besties sit there in tears. That girl you'd smile at but never talk to ?  She's now crying . The boy who used to kick you under your table just to annoy you ? He'll be shocked. He'll be devastated. He'll blame himself. What about your teacher? Thoughts crossing her mind . She'll question if you did it because she didn't make the school comfortable enough for you. Pain. Devastation. All in one. Who organises your funeral ? Who has to got through your stuff? Clothes? Notes? Those few older girls who used to give you daggers at school? They'll feel regret. They'll blame themselves. See, if you killed yourself today, you'll never know what might happen tomorrow. You'll never know because you're dead. Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead. Your family hates themselves for it . Your bestfriends then falls into depression. More tears than a river. All because you killed yourself because you thought no one would care right ? You are loved . By many. Someone now is thinking of you . And right now , I'm thinking about anyone who has thought or is considering suicide. You are beautiful no matter if you're black, white, homosexual, tall , short or overweight . You are beautiful. You want to kill yourself? Think about it first. There's no coming back. And I promise if you do it , you're not only hurting yourself . You'll hurt many. You are creating more tears than you led yourself to. You're making everyone miserable. Feel guilty , pain all the time. They'll never gets anymore happy than they used to when they had you. Everyone care about you. And you're thinking of commiting suicide?