Depression is like nightmares. I have no control of what's going on. There is no way out and it feels like no one cares. No matter what I do, I'm never good enough. I'll always be useless, never good enough. Worthless and hopeless. I'm scared and lonely all the time. No matter what I'm doing or who I am with, the feelings always there. It feels like an endless circle of guilts, worthlessness, pain, fear, and weakness. You feel like there is no point in trying anymore. You feel empty. Like you're not really exsisting. You're breathing. But that doesn't mean you're alive. It's when its hurt to smile , hurts to laugh , hurts to breathe. Everything you do hurts and there is no getting away from it. No one understands what you're feeling. You're silent , but in reality, you're screaming for help and no one can save you. You're on your own from now on. Everything you do, leaves you tired. Things you used to enjoy , they don't bring any comfort to you anymore.  The only things that might bring relief is the feeling of the cold blade. Someone asked you, "how are you?" . You take your time to answer it. Because you know they won't care , you decide to answer "I'm fine." You saw that person you love , loves someone else. And, they're happy together. He leaves you hanging . Broken. Then they'll come back to make it up to you. But then , you're stronger than before. You're not the same kid he used to knew. And your conversation will start with "Who are you? I'm sorry. I don't know you." Yeah thats it. You see, life knocks me badly several times. Make me see things I don't wanna see. But thanks to life, it made me stronger to accept the fact that life will not always be like you wanted it to be. So get up. Move on. Lead a happier life. That's what depression taught me.