Hi guys. here I am. not asleep yet. crying in front of the laptop. feel so stupid. right now , there's nothing I want more other than to just disappear and never come back or just die instantly or just have amnesia or whatever sickness. I just hope I died. why is this happening to me? i love you. like seriously , I do. I really do. but it seems like u don't care at all. it's just me or you really have someone else in mind? you don't have time for me. I understand that. I remembered when you said you don't want to be apart from me. you said you love me that much and wouldn't have the heart to leave me. but you just did  bro. I'm a girl. I overthink stuff. I'm sorry for that. I'm starting to think that I'm nothing but a burden to you. I don't know what to do. Dear you, I love you. I can't bear losing you . But I think I should give it a break. I should leave you alone. So that you won't have to waste your time on me. you don't have to think about me anymore. In other words, I should give you space you craved for. I'll make it easy for us both. I won't be using laptop anymore. So you don't have to feel guilty of not mentioning me on twitter or whatever. you don't have to see me anymore. I love you. It's just that maybe I'm not good for you. and will never be good enough. I'm sorry for everything. and thanks for everything too. Lastly , I love you. so much that no one could ever love someone like I love you. Bye.



Love, lielly.